Down the rabbit hole...

He wasn't sure how he arrived in the park. He just seemed to have arrived there. Thoughts raced around his head. He felt so much pressure, squeezing him, so many things seemed to be collapsing around him and there seemed so little he could do. Perhaps this was just some past catching up with him. Maybe this was his due. But whatever it was, it seemed too much, seemed that his head was literally under pressure from inside, like a steam cooker but the valve was stuck, there was no way of releasing the pressure that was building inside. He remembered he had been in his apartment. He remembered he had been thinking about work and relationships and debts. None of them were good. All of them could be dealt with one at a time but when they all seemed to go wrong at the same time, that suddenly seemed to have made a difference. Maybe it was coming already, maybe there was an inevitability about it all. Maybe it was simply written in the stars. Who knew, and who actually cared. The

I've been a atheist or at least agnostic (fence sitter) for most of my life, at least for the parts where I have given it any consideration at all or where I have not been in excruciating agony and thinking that I might be about to cash in and find out whether I was right or wrong to have doubt or lack of faith. And for most of this time I stated the same old memes as many others about science and proof and all the bad things in the world and there being so many different types of god or creator. But... It is not so much that I have suddenly found faith it's just that a number of things strike me when I think about them. The kind of things that I guess most people have thought about one way or another at some point or another throughout time! For instance, I was thinking about the scientific principal called the Law of the Conservation of Energy which states that energy can neither be created nor destroyed it can only be transferred from one form to another. Which is

I guess it's election time. How exciting. This is the first time in my life where the number of factors and mix of parties combined with the depth of feeling within the country I have no idea what will happen. Normally you can be pretty certain that either one or other of the main parties is going to win and one of the two main parties will almost certainly win but what kind of win is an entirely different matter. So much has changed in the recent years, the left has gone a long way left and the right has moved even further right (which some might find hard to believe). Not only am I uncertain what will happen in the election I have no idea what will happen once a government is formed. I just have this rather uncomfortable feeling that whatever government is next in power it will not be good for the country but in very different ways. I suspect that a coalition government would be the best outcome, so long as it is not a coalition of right and far right like Conservative and